em, ily
20 August 2014 @ 09:16 pm
today wrestling was hard like it always is, but some people from jiu jitsu who aren't normally around during that time were there doing their thing. they saw what we were at the end (wheelbarrows, bear crawls, sprints) and were like "did you get in trouble? are you being punished?" and we were like NO THIS IS OUR COOLDOWN LOL.

so i came home feeling pretty badass because of that. even tho it's all rly tough i can feel that it's bein' good for me, and i feel ded but tomorrow i'll go to jiu jitsu and acquire even more neat bruises. in the past two days people have remarked that i look like i've lost weight (which i have, but i wonder where i lost it from that it finally made people notice *rightthefucknow*) so esp after wrestling i came home and when i was changing i was all body-positive (not that i don't have a lot more work to do but i don't remember probably ever feeling good at 164. it probably has also to do with having started at 180) and someone on fb has posted taylor swift's new song which is cutedancey as fuck so basically i feel really good right now and wanted to document it.

if i could just get around to getting a new job shit would be 100000x better but this post-work flow's p good.
 
 
 
em, ily
06 March 2014 @ 08:21 pm
so i've been to kickboxing twice now! i figured i should start writing down some things i learn so i don't forget.

- my stance is wrong. i try to do more sideways stuff but i should be boxier. stand straight, legs apart, and take a step back with my right leg. hips facing more forward.

- pushkicks: bend your knee up first, then use your hips to push forward. it's not just a full leg kick, it's knee then out. offensive is a more forceful GET THE FUCK AWAY but defensive is more a really hurty jab to knock the wind out of you for a second or something. try to do jabs for now so the punching bag isn't swingin' all over.
 
 
 
em, ily
04 January 2014 @ 04:35 pm


what up sluts
 
 
 
em, ily
20 November 2013 @ 06:00 pm
what the hell is it gonna take for me to feel connected to something
 
 
 
em, ily
18 June 2013 @ 06:41 pm


hi lj
 
 
 
em, ily
13 April 2013 @ 05:46 pm
oh, i guess i should also update about this!

i have been going to roller derby practice since mmm feb 28.

it's once a week for now since i am in New Recruits which means "uh let's teach you how to be competent on skates before we start teachin' you how to slam and be slammed into lolol." i've never skated before so for the first two weeks i clung to the walls.

it's the first thing i've really tried at. every week i'm like "holy shit this is what it feels like to try at something and suck less each time?" it's p cool. i drive straight from work every thursday since it's 40.8 miles away which, in 5pm have-to-go-around-downtown-LA time, takes about an hour and a half.

i think some people were surprised that i am choosing to do this and i think they were skeptical that i would stick with it which is fair because it's a long drive and i have a habit of very quickly not sticking with things. but it is a thing i do now woowooo!
 
 
 
em, ily
12 October 2012 @ 03:48 pm
i am surprised by how much i love possessive language during cutesytalk. i've been e-flirting with this guy in new york and sometimes he says things like "you're so adorable, i just wanna make you mine" and whatnot. it's not paired with any creepy overbearing behavior, which is important. but it surprised me how things like keeping me all to himself strike me in such the right emotional place, and makes me feel more special than anything else.

it's kind of set a new standard for feel-good-ness. but also makes me sad because i don't have that sort of mutual devotion tangibly (or intangibly, too, i guess, since i don't know him that well). but... it set a new standard for what i want to find? WHICH IS ALMOST ANNOYING BECAUSE IT'S NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN LIKING ANYONE I'VE BEEN ON A DATE WITH ANYWAY.
 
 
 
em, ily
23 September 2012 @ 12:57 pm
i don't normally post things from reddit because i feel like erreone i know has probably seen it but i love this

 
 
 
em, ily
11 September 2012 @ 04:26 pm
i went to bunker on friday and this picture of me taken there is better than like aaaany other party photo i've been in:



 
 
 
em, ily
27 August 2012 @ 02:32 pm
hello guys i love my profile (also my hair looks straight, wat)



and here is a smile